My Story – How I Found Joy Inspite of Fear, Anxiety and Depression by davidTrig
You’ve seen the videos, read the stories, seen the ads. GOZO means JOY and it’s the name of my organization committed to bringing you JOY regardless of fear, anxiety and depression.
GOZO is also my story and my calling.
I grew up with joy in my heart and a belief that I could do anything!
My childhood was happy, but as a young boy, I experienced war, loss, separation from my parents, fear of deportation and loneliness. I didn’t have a father figure in my life, I raised myself, but had an amazing grandmother who gave me everything and loving parents who wrote me letters almost every day.
In my 20’s and 30’s I experienced much success and love, married the love of my life, got my first real job, graduated from college, entered seminary, had three beautiful children, helped a ton of people through music, worship, speaking, outreach, worked with amazing people and did some pretty creative stuff.
It was a dream season in my life.
But then I began to experience fear, anxiety and panic attacks.
I sought help, began to take care of my body, mind and soul but then things got worst. Over the next few years I lost four jobs, lost two parents, was unemployed, uninsured, almost lost my marriage and went through a significant bout of anxiety and depression.
Again, I looked to God, mentors, therapists, friends and went deeper into my story to find the grace amidst anxiety. It was an incredibly tough season, only the grace of God and the love of my wife held me together.
Slowly I began to heal, from January 2012 to January 2014, I started to once again recognize the hand of God in my life, slowly bringing me out of a long winter I called Christmas Cloud.
Today, although I’m still a work in progress, but I am more focused than ever and ready to share what I’ve learned with others.
My greatest joy is my wife and children, married almost 20 years to my lovely Rachelle I couldn’t be happier. She is my dream, my inspiration, my checks and balance, my rock.
Canela (15) is a model, was 1st runner up for Ms Teen Long Beach 2015 and is an A student. Isabela (13) is a people magnet and a gifted singer. David Dennis (11) is a beast on the drums and has the gift of speaking.
Since March 2014 I’ve hosted conferences, published articles, recorded a CD, started a podcast and webTV show and began to pastor a church. I’ve spoken at schools, churches, businesses, joined a crossfit community and even co-hosted a show with Clipper Daryl!
God is once again showing me that his grace is enough, that He loves me and that in my weakness He is strong! He’s truly changing my life, marriage and family one day at a time.
This is why I call this effort #GOZO! because my focus verse during this season has been “Though there’s pain in the night, JOY [or GOZO] comes in the morning” Psalm 30:5
And the dream is not done, it’s just beginning. I long to bring #GOZO to immigrants and the poor, children, Latinos and families that have gone through what I’ve gone through.
Perhaps you can relate.
Perhaps you’re a creative type, entrepreneur, small business owner, a young leader wanting to change the world and who’s not afraid to talk about the imperfections of your past.
You’ve been through pain, loss, bankruptcy, your marriage almost fell apart, you almost died, you’ve been wounded but you did NOT give up. Your heart still longs for greatness.
You realize that in your vulnerability you are strong, that our power comes from our weakness not from being perfect or fake and that the best thing we can give to others is our selves, healed, powerful, ready and aware of how human we are.
This is REAL JOY! REAL GOZO!
I invite you to become a member of the #GOZONation and #GOZOFamily, and live a life of joy inspite of fear, anxiety, loss or depression.
So what do I do?
I provide a few things I have a passion for:
1. Anxiety and spiritual guidance (20 years ministry experience, I was in the MDiv Program at Talbot Seminary for 2 years, I’m a licensed pastor)
2. Media company – Production/video/podcast/web tech support (I have a BS, Computer Science/Engineering from CSULB)
3. Leadership and Business skills (I’m in the Masters in Global Leadership program at Fuller Seminary and was the Business Administrator at the Church at USC for 2 years)
On behalf of my wife Rachelle and our children Canela, Isabela and David Dennis, thank you! You are part of our community and we value your support,
Until next time,
Your #GOZO! friend,