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I Feel Handicapped

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I feel handicapped
My mind wants to enjoy and live
To work hard and live fully
But something inside my heart is weak
Something that makes me feel handicapped

My mind is weak, my body is not right
I wish to be a machine without any weaknesses
When will I be completely strong
When will I be perfect
Not gonna happen
This is who I am

A moment of life came to me
Right in between these sad thoughts
And I took action and led the way
Lived and engaged the moment before me
One small push and the little birds flew
Without my help, they were ready to fly

My face and their faces were filled with smiles
As my heart raced once again with something inside
A mixture of joy and concern
My heart aches like a spike in my flesh
My eyes clouded with questions, what is going on?

I know it’s my friends
They’re always around me
Why don’t they ever leave?
How great would it be if they would never come back

But they’re here to stay

My hands are weak
My heart is weak
Anxiety comes like a ghost, unannounced
It just hits me like a ton of bricks
So much going on
My mind can’t handle it all

I trust and look up
There is a God I know
I lift my eyes up to the mountains
And ride my bike
All day long

Have a great day,

Into the future,

davidT